A little Help Maybe ?

its weird sometime, 

when i have problem,

writing literally calms me a bit....

do u really wanna know...

that i have this gigantic pain inside me

why...

why....

you always find a way to make me feel this pain.

im trying not to be me

seriously

i am trying not to hurt anyone

you know what im capable of

my word my action can literally

kills a person in a sec .

but you ....

never realize all this trouble

that i must have gone through

so that i wont hurt you

can you actually fell this pain

where im so much in pain

when i actually trying not to be myself

i feel so sick sometimes

might end up crying alone by myself

i was in pain..

i am seriously need to push this pain away

it hurts so bad .

pleaseeeeeeeeeee god help me ..

give me the strength

im no longer capable of holding myself

ur attitude is too much 

i need myself to be free

once again like before

help ..........................

is it me or .............

HAHA , im just bored

i was actually looking around googling quite awhile to find the most interesting , fun amazing , astonishing topic ever for my elc speech , it sounds kinda easy but hmm to find that purrfecttt topic is so hard , since mostly of my classmate doing the same old boring topics about schools student career and all those creepy kind of phobias , i think im the one who should have that fun where everyone can giggle around when they listen to my speech .

so after awhile googling , im getting lost in the fast lane , so i decided to pay a visit to my ayeppp aymann new blog . he literally make the new blog so he could actually talk about himself more. i mean his blogs before this is wayyyyy tooo general . Full with history and information and its like if you wanna search like when aristottle died or something , maybe ull find it there . so afterrrr reading his post , there was only 4 post since its a new blog . i find that the blog is still too general . i mean he was talking about his life a BIT . but most of the time he kindaa telling people the meaning of his topics..... and because of that i think the new blog is such a waste . HAHAHAA . im sorry but im mean .......

more about this weekkkk.....

its been a tiring week for me , and im gonna face like 4-5 weeks more in hell and because of that ive been a little more than a little bit grumpy than ever . so if you happened to know me in the reality world , make sure to hi me nicely ......