the only thing in my mind right now .......

A HUG

from you

hopeless

trying to hard

over and over again 

it is tiring somehow

everything keeps falling apart

make me upset

more miserable than i expected

it hurts so bad ..

i need to keep this thing up

but im still confused 

whether is it me

....

or

life is never fair enough to everyone

i do feel sorry for myself......

The Scientist

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorryYou don't know how lovely you areI had to find you, tell you I need youTell you I set you apart

Tell me your secrets and ask me your questionsOh, let's go back to the startRunning in circles, coming up tailsHeads on a science apart

Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh, take me back to the start

I was just guessing at numbers and figuresPulling your puzzles apartQuestions of science, science and progressDon't speak as loud as my heart

Tell me you love me, come back and haunt meOh and I rush to the startRunning in circles, chasing our tailsComing back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh, it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would so hard
I'm going back to the start

Oh ooh, ooh ooh ooh oohAh ooh, ooh ooh ooh oohOh ooh, ooh ooh ooh oohOh ooh, ooh ooh ooh ooh

a little piece in my mind

There is always one time that you feel insecure of yourself .

maybe this is my time.

it does feel weird for me .

cause i've never been like this .

you can say back then i love my self too much

didn't care what people say , talk about or saying nasty things behind my back .

and because of that .'i have a very high confident level .

but there is you

just a person

an ordinary person

how on earth you can make me felt this way .

everything about you 

did effect me so much .

not that i hate who am i now 

but .....

if only if 

i can be me once again

a person who dosent care what others talk about

a person who seem mystery somehow

a person who didn't give out too much

a person who respect and always

love herself ....

no matter what happen in your life , 

people will change . 

including yourself . 

but the question is .

is it good or bad :) ?

well for me . i've to discover myself more ....

my little precious

                    

                      i love you baby boo :*

iftar :)

assalammualaikum

in this holy month , 

this is my second time iftar with my beloved family.

yes, i hate this.

this long distance .

missing them each day is unbearable :(

something inside me

few things keeps borthering my mind .

i keep thinking .

and make me afraid of it .

i really dont know whether i belong there .

sometime i just feel like i am a burden .

i really want to be happy .

if only you know how i feel .

i just wanna say .

whatever happen i will never going to leave .

our little secret

 

sometimes I wonder why it is you but just being with you already explains everything

I don't need to show our love to the whole world

cause it will always be and forever

our little secrets

together

final ?

just few days , few hours , few minutes and few SECONDS for my.......

FINAL EXAMS !

 

this semester

 

ohh why !! ohh my lord !! ohh lawdy

I need more time, there is a lot of revision need to be done . ohh common why am I so lazy .

 

 

miahahahaa , yes it is like killing our self for all this crazy shit

 

I really hope for the best this semester, been through a lot and I need to archive.

 

Romantic Roses

dear earthlings

 

im proudly to present a night to be remembered by all of our course students

it is the night where everyone was so handsome and beautiful

I attach some picture of mine with my dear #pirahnas and #baby2 5

 

 

 

that night im wearing a red dress cardigan at the top and a shawl as my hijab

my make up was inspired by my one and only fatin hatta .

 

 

here you go our hottie fatin hatta

 

with my dearest sengal , mr arif aiman

 

#babybaby5

fatin hatta, me , affiqah razak and iyarayana

 

me with fatin hatta's abam , mr khamarul

 

lovely duck face =..=

 

 

 best DINNER ever !

 

 

at the photo booth ! common girls ! lets hip and pop..

new born baby monstah

 

hello I am Arissa Qairina binti Aqballuddin and I am 9 days old today.

 

Hello earthlings , last week was a typical week for me . handling my mental breakdown disorder and having issues my mummy . it was a tough week for me tho . yahh maybe some people may seem am a bit over reacted about this , frankly speaking i think im not that horrible . i found that nowadays most people will look more miserable handling their love issues rather than their families . so thank god im not that kind of people . lets skip all this and we go to the night before arisssa was born . my mummy was having some issues before giving birth to arissa. so, that when all of this began .  

 

The night that i will not forget ,the night that i am so worried about my mother (for the first time in my life i felt so apart from her ), the night that my father scolded me and ask me to calm down so badly, the night that my mum wont talk to me , the night that i wont eat, the night that i act like a crazy bitch and the night that for the first time im crying for my problems in front of  a guy.

 

obviously I AM NOT ME that night ....... thank god i have my bff around me that night and most importantly thank you to the guy that "layan my kerenah" all night :) and they did seem a bit shocked by looking at my "horrible me" that night ....THANKS guys , love all of you till eternity <3

 

so after i went back to my college , at 9.am in the morning my father informed me that my mom was on her way to labour room but still my mum wont talk to me . at that time only god knew what i felt , my one and only mother was about to face death and i still stuck here in perlis and the only thing i can think is how cruel my family can be by not giving me the permission to come home .

 

REGRET.... one word that i don't wanna feel if anything happens to my mom , still nobody would care but praised to Allah , Alhamdullilah everything was just fine , the operation was under control , mummy is saved and i get a new baby sister :) thank you Allah S.W.T for giving me this opportunity :) 9 day passed still im waiting for my holiday break to meet my precious family and my new sister .....

 

p/s: awak awak thanks for that night , somehow you did calmed me :)