hello I am Arissa Qairina binti Aqballuddin and I am 9 days old today.
Hello earthlings , last week was a typical week for me . handling my mental breakdown disorder and having issues my mummy . it was a tough week for me tho . yahh maybe some people may seem am a bit over reacted about this , frankly speaking i think im not that horrible . i found that nowadays most people will look more miserable handling their love issues rather than their families . so thank god im not that kind of people . lets skip all this and we go to the night before arisssa was born . my mummy was having some issues before giving birth to arissa. so, that when all of this began .
The night that i will not forget ,the night that i am so worried about my mother (for the first time in my life i felt so apart from her ), the night that my father scolded me and ask me to calm down so badly, the night that my mum wont talk to me , the night that i wont eat, the night that i act like a crazy bitch and the night that for the first time im crying for my problems in front of a guy.
obviously I AM NOT ME that night ....... thank god i have my bff around me that night and most importantly thank you to the guy that "layan my kerenah" all night :) and they did seem a bit shocked by looking at my "horrible me" that night ....THANKS guys , love all of you till eternity <3
so after i went back to my college , at 9.am in the morning my father informed me that my mom was on her way to labour room but still my mum wont talk to me . at that time only god knew what i felt , my one and only mother was about to face death and i still stuck here in perlis and the only thing i can think is how cruel my family can be by not giving me the permission to come home .
REGRET.... one word that i don't wanna feel if anything happens to my mom , still nobody would care but praised to Allah , Alhamdullilah everything was just fine , the operation was under control , mummy is saved and i get a new baby sister :) thank you Allah S.W.T for giving me this opportunity :) 9 day passed still im waiting for my holiday break to meet my precious family and my new sister .....
p/s: awak awak thanks for that night , somehow you did calmed me :)