is it me or .............

HAHA , im just bored

i was actually looking around googling quite awhile to find the most interesting , fun amazing , astonishing topic ever for my elc speech , it sounds kinda easy but hmm to find that purrfecttt topic is so hard , since mostly of my classmate doing the same old boring topics about schools student career and all those creepy kind of phobias , i think im the one who should have that fun where everyone can giggle around when they listen to my speech .

so after awhile googling , im getting lost in the fast lane , so i decided to pay a visit to my ayeppp aymann new blog . he literally make the new blog so he could actually talk about himself more. i mean his blogs before this is wayyyyy tooo general . Full with history and information and its like if you wanna search like when aristottle died or something , maybe ull find it there . so afterrrr reading his post , there was only 4 post since its a new blog . i find that the blog is still too general . i mean he was talking about his life a BIT . but most of the time he kindaa telling people the meaning of his topics..... and because of that i think the new blog is such a waste . HAHAHAA . im sorry but im mean .......

more about this weekkkk.....

its been a tiring week for me , and im gonna face like 4-5 weeks more in hell and because of that ive been a little more than a little bit grumpy than ever . so if you happened to know me in the reality world , make sure to hi me nicely ......

Fuck you

i hate all the bitches
that keeps hanging around my life
it feels like
can u not give a fuck about me .
i literally have no idea who u are ,
but u keep
bugging my life with your stupidness

sincerely ,

im so annoyed of you

p/s : stop retweetting favorite comment or even like my Instagram twitter and Facebook post

to you i give this

I dont have any problem with you ,

u are the one who ignore me,

perhaps,

u are the one who have problem with me,

so after this,

can you please tell me ur problem,

so i'll know,

why i have to ignore u too....

lots of love,

atiyahsna

lets take a deep breath and lets not talk about marriage again ....

well hello again ....

at last my 2 weeks of being miserable ended . for the past two weeks ive been stu-dying for the test . it is actually a bit funny when some people took for granted on what we are doing . i mean like we did study like we are having final exams but we literally having test only . this course is one of my hardest decision ever in life............................

so we are having our family gathering last sunday , and as usual dinner then praying together , socializing a bit and most of the time online-ing . even my baby girl was playing with her iPad non stop , what do they expect from us .... it was fun eating socializing until they (the adults) talk about marriage and unfortunately it has to be me to become the topic sentence , the main point , the major problem in their conversation . i dont know why but what is so wrong for me who actually just turned 22 years old and didnt want to get married. i know nowadays everyone are like being open minded about marriage in early age , but cant u just consider me not in that group . ohh god im actually having lotss and lotss of thing to do . tonss and tonsss of thing to be done . i have no time for marriage . i have a 2 years old baby sister that still need her older sister . i dont want to be so selfish . well even if im not still marrying at this age would be horrible for me . just give me 5- 10 years more to settle down my degree my studies my work then we talk about marriage .

i really have no idea whats is in their mind (the adults) . if i get married this early . who will support me and all . since both of us still stu-dying surviving to get our degree .our parents ... ??? i'll be ashamed of my self if that happen. common laaa . please after this can you guys think before saying stuff or having conversation about someone . we must have a reason why it is not happening yet (the marriage) . and for me of course because i dont want tooooo -.-

marriage is such a big responsible to me and i need lotssss of time to make a wise decision . so please , respect what i want . thank you :)

new start

hello blog....

hmmm first of all i just wanna say .... my English is at the worst state ever . since ive lost my interest on writing anything even a little bit of summary , my vocabulary seems at the bottom of my brain . i barely speak in english tooo . so i think from now on . to improve my writing reading or so whatever skills regarding to english . im trying my best to write every single thing in here again . well i always assume this blog is like my journal . so screw anyone who feels irritate with my upcoming post .....

im not sure whether my life is completely fine or not . i just feel like my degree life is so horrible i didnt even dare to look at it . urghhh im on my 2nd semester of my 2nd year degree , everything just becoming so impossible everyday . and i have to deal with it . i dont know why i accepted this computational mathematics at the first place . i know i did love programming once upon a time but it was only c++ languange but now they add java and blaa blaa database and all i felt brainless again .
hmmm and dont let me start about physics, i literally have no idea why we ? a computational mathematics have to learn physics . i really didn't mind if it was like a simple physic but when our lecturer told us that we actually learning a hardcore physics and only pure physic student took this course , hmm we were like urghhh im so dooommmmmmmm . why and why they make our life more miserable . i hate myself at this state right now but well as a student trying my best to keep myself on track . can i just have my dean award in an easy way . why is it have to be hard like this . im not that brilliant genius kind of kid that can score everything . the harder i try the more lost ive become.....

so there you go , a little bit hint about my life , interesting isn't it ............now i have to complete my report . yeapppp ive been dragging along my physic report while im suppose to be on my holiday .....

lalalalalalaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa